CONFUZZLED

just feeling so confuzzled - lately things have gone awfully wrong, and unexpected things keep happening - although i like to welcome these feelings as well because they give a feeling i've never felt before and would like to experience it. Although these confusing moments did course me to break up with howie for a couple of days and that didn't seem like the right thing to do, since it was rather unreasonable for me to have broke anyway.



Well lets cut the long story short... It all started on friday last week, where on that day i was pretty determined to break it with howie due to personal issues happening to me ---- although i felt pretty selfish and guilty after doing that, but the feeling of being tied to an item has finally evaporated once i said what i had to say and the feeling of heartache just came and went away every so often. Although we ( howie and i) have reconciled, i don't seem to feel as attached anymore, maybe it's because i've had a taste of freedom after a long time? I don't know, but one things for sure - i can't seem to face Howie without remembering his expression from last friday and that causes a lot of pain. Yes - it suggests that even though i pretended i didn't really care that day, i can't forget the pain i seemed to have caused him and now i don't think i can forgive myself.

my itinerary for last week

Monday - what did i do on monday? ..... i think i spent that day drawing at king's park and then i went home to finish the touches on it, but that took up most of the day.

Tuesday - went out on a date to the movies with howie, but tagged sarah along so i won't get caught (sarah's my best friend since year8) ...... umm we watched kungfu panda that day and then went chicken treat afterwards. Afterwards we ( as in sarah and i) went home and sarah spent the night at my place.

Wednesday - spent the morning with sarah and then she had to go home, after that i went to visit my grandparents and did some studying there. Mum picked me up from their place at around 8pm and we went home afterwards.

Thursday - helped mum do some delivery and then we went to buy a cake for my sister's b'day party at maccas. we ended up buying a blackforest cake at miss maud's for her although we were thinking of getting a cake at utopia myaree for her, but why get a big cake for her on a day that really isn't her b'day (we celebrated her birthday a day early).
We arrived at maccas at around 7pm and then spent the next three hours there - arrived back home at 10pm and i decided to take a warm bubble bath

Friday - now on friday is a mystery you have to find out from me yourself

Saturday - i did the same thing i did on friday

Sunday - went shopping with my mum and siblings at harbour town, ended up buying pairs of converse shoes, clothes from nike and etc.

so all in all i didn't really do much studying last week

Shopping

Although things have been slightly rocky lately, i think it'll get better. In a couple of days it'll be my sister's b'day, so i decided to go shopping today for the pressie - yes i'm leaving it a bit late to buy the present (something i advise everyone NOT to do). So anyways, i went shopping and saw this fantastic pressie (a little elephant, it's sooooo cute and cuddly), but as most people know i tend to keep the cute stuff for myself - i feel realllllly bad now due to the fact that i still haven't found a present for Pameris.

I WILL SOON!!!!!!

huh?

What can i say, Nessa and Nazzie? I really cannot be stuffed putting effort in this blog, when i have one other than this one already. Just because i'm crap at blogging----- well it just can't be helped can it.
:P